Hi! I have been a crystal meth user for 3 years. September of 2009 was the first time I ever tried it. Within 6 months, I was banging it (shooting it into my veins with a needle ). I had smoked it the first 6 months, however once you get the feeling from shooting up, there is NOTHING that compares! Absolutely no better feeling on this earth!!
I am a divorced, middle-aged, educated, employed female. I have a 4 year bachelor of science degree in business administration and graduated Magna Cum Laude.
I have a career and keep my addiction as well-hidden as possible. I have been divorced for 2 years.
My usage: My average daily usage of meth at this date in time is 1/2 -1g (gram) a day. At my worst I was using approximately $500.00 worth every two days. Where I live, 1 g (gram) costs $120.00 and an 8-ball (approx 3.5 grams ) costs anywhere from $250.00-$400.00.
I have children. I no longer have custody.
I have a very loving and supportive family (mother, father, siblings, friends ). My parents have a loving marriage of 40+ years and have never used drugs.
What I hope to accomplish with this blog:
1) I Hope it serves as a memory /diary /some sort of explanation to my children when the day comes that I have died of a drug overdose.
2) I hope to keep even one person from ever using this nasty, horribly addictive drug.
I am 99.99% sure that I will die using this drug. I love ‘ice’ ( meth ) more than ANYTHING else in my life. Hands down, no doubt about it.