After 14+ hours of pleading and crying I have him back! Do I feel any remorse??  NO. I cannot lose him…EVER!  He’s probably the last non-using person I’ll be able to attract before I die or end up in prison…I have to know that I have someone that loves me and would give a shit if either of those happened.

Still wondering where I found all of the tears.  I can’t remember the last time I actually cried…or felt anything for that matter.  It’s definitely worth it though, not having to feel all of the fucking pain in my life. 

Besides, I did have a headache so I had a reason to cry…kind of! lol