Why do I always think one more time…and then fuck that up?!

I am a lost cause when it comes to meth.

Not sure why or what I even care about –besides my children…no doubt EVER about that!!

Why would they even want to call me their mother to friends, family….I sure as hell don’t blame them. I can’t even stand me…how could I ever think anyone else could?

I have nothing to my name, materialistic-wise, I am broke, divorced, and a meth head. Real proud of their mama…fucking NOT!!

And I am supposed to be their example in life. Wow, talked about feeling like a complete and total failure/loser/let down.