Having just reached my 90 days clean, I have been reflecting on my life since I quit using.

I have had so many good things, so many blessings given to me since I quit using meth that I am really struggling right now.  I feel as though everything was so fucked up in my life for so long because of my bad decisions that I don’t deserve anything good.

Every morning I wake up and,
honestly, I’m afraid that it’s going to be taken away from me. I mean what did I do other than use drugs for how many years?  What have I done to deserve a great job that I absolutely love going to every single day? What have I done to deserve my healthy, smart and beautiful children that I have great relationships with? I keep waiting for it to all come crashing down because it always does.

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